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(no subject) [Nov. 5th, 2006|08:50 pm]
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(no subject) [Aug. 25th, 2006|03:36 pm]
[Current Mood |contemplativecontemplative]

I never even use this thing anymore, and I never read other people's journals. So it's time to say goodbye to LJ.

RIP amanda_louise It's been real.
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(no subject) [Jun. 2nd, 2006|10:28 am]
[Current Location |Unicel - Lisbon Street Lewiston]
[Current Mood |crappycrappy]

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This is the craziest thing you'll ever read, and unless you are Sar or Beck, you will NOT understand [Jan. 29th, 2006|04:53 pm]
[Current Mood |nostalgicnostalgic]
[Current Music |Dixie Chicks - Don't Waste Your Heart]

So all afternoon I've been reading my old LJ entries, and this is what I've concluded. I miss my girls SO MUCH, and I miss TJ's like you wouldn't believe.


You have to check that shit out. It's amazing. I miss TJ's like whoa. I just read Becky's comment to that entry, and I can't believe I forgot about HOPE AND JOEY!!! Wow, that's amazing. How in hell did I forget them?

I wish I had to work at TJ's today. It's Sunday, so chances are I would have worked with Karen and Sara, or Karen and Ash. Karen and I would work 1-9, and Sar would have worked 2-7. Beck would have worked 9-2, or 5-1 with Berta. I can't believe I remember all this, and most of all I can't believe I miss it! Anyways, I would go in at 1 and it would be fairly busy. We would get lots of take out orders, being in the witner, we would get lots of pizza orders. I would come in and help the girls catch up from the breakfast dishes, and I would do cash, while Berta went to smoke and bitch to herself outside. Beck and I would catch everything up, and then sit down and chill and do nothing until she had to leave at 2. Sara would come, late, and Beck would bitch her out for being so late. (I can picture all of this in my head). Karen would come in, acting all Boss Like, and ask Roberta what needed to be done, but she wouldn't really care, because she'd be a TJ's Nazi and make me and Sar tear down the store and clean everything.

One time, I was cleaning the windows around the beer sign next to the ATM, and I got electrocuted. It was like a tiny little shock but it scared the F outta me, and Karen was all worried and thought she killed me, and I was pissed because she made me clean the nasty shit while she sat and talked on the phone long distance to her sister. Who she called from the store. Yes, that's right.

Okay, back to a normal Sunday. Sar and I would haul out the booths and clean them all out with GREASE LIGHTENING. The best cleaning shit ever invented. Then I would fill napkins, jelly, and salt and pepper shakers, and Sar would get all excited and start taking apart the ceiling tiles to clean them. (From about 2:30 - 6:30, NO ONE would enter the store on a Sunday. Except of course, Evret and Louise to get coffee and tickets, and HOPE AND JOEY to eat beans and hot dogs and Joey would make a huge mess and Hope wouldn't even leave a tip. That's exactly how it went down.)

Around 6, it would start to get a little busy. Clarence and his WIFE OR MOTHER (I never figured out who she was...) would come in for dinner, and Evret and Louise with their daughter, and a few other regulars. It would get a little busy, and Karen would be FORCED to do work. We would take care of all of that, and then at 7 pm, THE FRYOLATORS!!!!!!! Yes, I would have to clean the nasty Fryolators, and they were such a BITCH. I would have to turn them off when I got to work around 1, and then people would bitch because they weren't on, and they couldn't get fries or chicken fingers. I would have to make a sign on the menu telling them they were turned off so I wouldn't get yelled at. Anyways, back to 7. I would have to drain out the nasty grease into huge buckets with my huge yellow rubber gloves. I would have to go out to the side of the store and dump it in the grease pit. EFFING NASTY. Then I would have to continue this until it was entirely drained. I would have to get my little wire coat hanger down in there to get all of the shit down the shoot, and it would smell SO NASTY. I would be covered - in my apron, mind you - from head to toe with grease! Ugh, so gross. and I would have to wash them all out with grease lightening, and then fill them with grease and turn them on to catch people who wanted fryolator stuff on Sunday nights.

At some point Kim would come in with Wyatt to get milk or something, and if it was the summer time, to pick up Heather from the dairy bar! But, back to the winter. Sar would start the floors, and then at 7 she would leave, so I would have to finish the floors, and do the grill, because Karen didn't do anything. Sometimes she would do the grill, but that was very very VERY seldom. So I would have to do all of that, and then do stuff to close up. Finish all the dishes, get the donuts ready for the next morning, make sure the coolers were stocked, do everything for Karen, etc.

Wow. I effing miss that place so much. I miss my friends stealing from there every second of our lives. I miss getting so excited that you would have a visitor (!!) that you told to come visit you, but never thought they would and then - wow - there they were. I miss Sar chasing me around screaming she's going to kill me. I miss everything. I miss TJ's. I miss my family there. They were amazing - Donald and Glo were our grandparents, Karen, Kim, Lisa, Berta were our psycho aunts, Crystal, Sheyanne (remember her!?!) were our cousins. Dave was our crazy drunk/cheating uncle. Man, that place was my life. EIJtoIEjt ;OIEJt:OIEj;IO E. I miss it...
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(no subject) [Dec. 11th, 2005|12:25 am]
[Current Mood |rushedrushed]
[Current Music |SNL]

I love my baby so much. He thinks because his life has gone so well lately that something will go bad now. I doubt it. I think his life is going well because he is so hot.

He won't remember asking me to write this in the morning, but for now, it's hilarious.

Tonight we went to Chili's to celebrate his internship and our 1 year 8 month anniversary. We got the best food and ate tons of it. However, I hvae shrimp alfredo leftover in my fridge that I really want right now. Buuuuuuuuut. I'm going to want it for lunch tomorrow. Dilemmas, dilemmas.

I am sort of drunk, and so is my baaaaaaaaaaaby. I love it. And I love him more than life.

I"m going to marry that boy. And that's a fact.
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(no subject) [May. 19th, 2005|07:30 am]
[Current Mood |excitedexcited]
[Current Music |Country, duh.]

Happy Birthday to me! :D
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DO IT, YO! [Feb. 8th, 2005|08:54 am]
[Current Mood |anxiousanxious]
[Current Music |MTV]

Want someone new on your flist? Well this is the friends connection meme. Comment, and I'll rec you someone to add. I won't necessarily match up fandoms, either. Because inter-fandom love is love. Got it? Comment, and this do this on your LJ so you can rec me, and everyone on your friendslist something.

This will be fun!! :-D
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Very very angry now! [Dec. 28th, 2004|02:13 pm]
[Current Mood |angryangry]
[Current Music |...]

I said I wasn't really going to update until I went back to school, but hey, I'm sitting here bored out of my mind and I have some serious time to kill (like a week and a half), so I might as well write out what's on my mind.

I'm sure everyone's sick of hearing about Christmas, but too bad. I didn't really talk about it, so I will now. Hey, it's better than hearing about it 2 weeks from now, right? Christmas ruled. I got a new set of luggage, a DVD player, money and gift certificates, a stocking full of cool stuff, hmm, what else? Oh, I almost forgot - a DIGITAL CAMERA. Yes, that's right. The thing I've been wanting for months now! It's like the best digital camera I've ever seen. 5 megapixels! A memory card that holds lik 84 pictures, you can record sound on pictures, take up to like 10 minute videos, and I got a docking station, so all I have to do is hook it up to my computer, put it on the thing, and voila! Instant pictures! It rules. My parents bought it for me, and they also got my mom one too. My dad said he spent about $1,000 on everything. Holy nachos! But it'll be worth it when they see the pictures I'm gonna whip out!

My dad's crazy about wrapping for Christmas. Everything, I mean EVERYTHING has to be wrapped - right down to the smallest thing in our stockings. So he took my new luggage, which had 3 pieces in it, and wrapped them all individually inside each other, and then in the smallest bag, he wrapped my memory card. So that was the first thing I opened. And I did a little dance, and of course he caught it on the video camera - me looking quite nice, for just having woken up and my hair a disaster, and I was a little nasty (just a little...) but it was a good time anyway, and then they had me unwrap my camera - but alas! My dad said 'But you'll find that box is empty' and my camera wasn't even there :( Then he said 'We took it out and it's been charging all night, ready for you to use!' Hurray! It's a blast, and uploading pictures is a cinch. I can't wait to get back to school so I can post them all!

I'm really liking being home right now. I haven't gotten up before 11 pretty much since I've been home, with a few exceptions - like Christmas when I was up at 6:30! But I like sleeping in, then hanging around and doing a lot of nothing. It's relaxing.

I passed all my classes, but Astronomy just barely. And I got a 2.05 for the semester, which is completley horrid. I'm sick of not being the smart kid anymore, so I'm working myself sick next semester if I have to. No lower than a B for me, I decided. And I need a real job. Somewhere I can earn more than $30 a week. Anyone want to buy me a car to get me back and forth to work? I'm thinking of applying to Hannaford, and then trying to transfer to Jay during the summer. Let's see how well that works...I don't really know how I'd get to work - let's hope the bus is cooperative!

My mom's home all this week, but she's sick so she just lays around in the chair. It's okay with me, though, because I just take her car wherever. Yesterday I went to visit my best friend, and we decided to go out to eat in Augusta. We went to Longhorn, and it was really good. Then we went to Old Navy because I have a gift certificate, but it was really nasty and all the clothes were all over the floor. Ew. I'll go back later.

Then we went back to Brianna's, and Brady came over and we hung out and watched TV. It's funny how many people I don't see, and how many people I'm sure don't care about my life, or how I am. People I went to high school with, who could really give a crap about how my life is.

Here we go. Fighting with my mom again. She can be such a *()$W%($W. She really makes me angry. She's yelling at me because this computer is such a piece. 'Close your journal and then everything else will work.' Um, NO. I would
ve just lost everything I just wrote. I hate this computer with such a passion. I just want to throw it out the window. Maybe that will make me feel better. Then I could throw my mom out the window too...AEJIOJ"AEJT"AEIJ AET"IJAEJ"EATJIAEJ!!!!!!!! Errr.

I need to go play The Sims and let off some of this steam. Maybe I'll kill someone off and it'll make me feel better. Oh, man. People can try - but no one on this entire PLANET could ever make me as mad as my mother can. Sometimes...ijet io'JEA" OAEJ "!!!!
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Don't waste your time on me, you're already the voice inside my head. Miss you. Miss you. [Dec. 13th, 2004|12:49 am]
[Current Mood |crankycranky]
[Current Music |How Am I Doin' - Dierks Bentley]

Since Sara is staring at her computer, waiting for an update, here I go. Sar - this one's for you.

I really don't have anything to update for. I'm stressed and cranky, what's new really? I hate finals. I hate school. I want this semester to be over so bad. I'm worried about passing classes. I'm worried about being put on probation. I'm worried about the future, I'm worried about everything that goes on around me. I'm worried about going home. I'm worried about not being anything my family thinks I am. I'm worried that I'm not at all the person people think I am. I'm worried about being a dissappointment to everyone I know. I'm worried I'm not good enough.

What makes me special? What makes me worth it? I'm so lost in my bad qualities and my faults, that I can't see any reason that I'd be worth it to anyone. Ever.

Enough about that. My weekend? Okay I guess. Friday night was fun. Did a little drinkin' with the gang. Last fling of the semester I guess you could say. I didn't get drunk, wasn't even really that buzzed. But had a really good night anyways. Played Tribond, 90's Trivial Pursuit, and Dirty Minds. Fun games, anyway.

Will this go away, will I be normal again?

Tomorrow I have my COS final, and if I don't get at least a 65 on it, I might not pass the class. That's what I'm shooting for anyways. How horrible is that? To hope for a D on a test? What have my standards come to? It's really ridiculous if you think about it. I went from Top 10 in my class, along with National Honor Society, to hoping for D's in college. That's sick. Really sick. I just hate the fact that I can't study. Ever. I never learned how to study. I never studied once in high school. I never even remember doing work in high school. Besides the occassional essay written a half hour before class in study hall. I did homework in the class before it was due, I made it through tests my BSing everything, and I survived because teachers liked me and I was supposed to. That's really all it comes down to.

I wish I was smart like I used to be. I remember when I was younger kids used to come to me for help. "Amanda's smart." That's all I ever heard. "You
re smart, you'll know this." In Kindergarten, I came home with my report card, and I had straight A's, but a note on the side: "Amanda is doing extremely well, but she needs to realize she's a student, not the teacher." I just liked knowing everything and being a smart kid. I wish I still felt that way. I just never put the work into it, so I never got the results. They wanted me to skip a grade. I think it was 4th grade? But my parents didn't want me to. They didn't want to push me too far. I think it's probably a good idea they didn't. But sometimes I wonder what my life would've been like if I was in the class ahead of me. That would've been so strange. Who would I have been friends with? I can't imagine my life without my friends right now. Imagine if I had never really met them. Would I be a completley different person? How weird to think about it...

I have a final Tuesday and Wednesday. Oh, and I have to write a 5 page paper when I get back from my test tomorrow. But that won't be a big deal. It's over Bend It Like Beckham. It's a good movie, so it'll be fine to write. Then I have to study for Astronomy with Sam. I have that final Tuesday at 1:30. Then Sociology Thursday at 10:30 I think. That will be a piece of cake. Then it's time to go home. Thank God. I really need the break from school or I'll probably rip all my hair out. My mom asked if she needed to buy me a wig. Hah, maybe.

I'm going to try and get up at 8 tomorrow, so I have a good 2 hours to study before my test. Ugh. Wish me luck please.

I'm not locking this post. I'm going to make it public. I'm hoping I'll get more comments on it than I usually do...

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Friends list cut. [Oct. 28th, 2004|04:06 pm]
[Current Mood |crankycranky]
[Current Music |Vanessa Carlton - I Am More]


There. I deleted.

Check and see if I still have you listed as a friend. If I don't, it's because you don't read my journal and you didn't comment to stay.

If for some reason, you still want to be on my friends list, comment again and I'll add you back.

Thank you, and to the rest of you - goodbye.
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